Okay, so forgive the golfing analogy here (I grew up watching way too much of it)
So you know when a golfer hits the ball into the sand trap? They try and get it out, but they swing and just send sand everywhere without touching the ball? So they try again, and this time they manage to hit the ball, but it just banks against the edge landing in the same spot? Over and over the golfer tries to get out of the sand trap, but unless you’re Phil Mickelson the likelihood you are going to end up covered in sand, still stuck in the trap, and one golf club thrown into the water trap near-by (either that or bent in half from repeatedly beating it against the ground in frustration).
Sometimes I feel like this is where I am headed. I am the golfer who is newly stuck in the sand trap. Or rut, or at the bottom of a really large wall, or stuck in between two cars who parallel parked way too close. Get the point? This mama is bumming. Here is the thing; we are about ½ ways through this deployment. This is a pretty standard occurrence for me during each and every one of the Hubs deployment. (Let’s be real, being a single mom is super hard. I have mad respect for those who do it full time all the time. Even with Kim here, I am still finding myself hitting the ½ ways slump.)
At some point I reach a point where I spend a few days to a few weeks feeling stuck. I don’t want to go out, I find myself making excuses to not go to things. Sure the excuses are always there, but that doesn’t mean I have to keep giving into them. So what if Squishy is crabby, who cares if the insomnia is getting to me, or the daily headache is getting to be a little much… I could and should push through and do the normal everyday things we have planned, but lately I have just not been feeling it at all. I’m not sleeping well at all, I am not eating as well as I should, I can’t seem to kick my diet coke habit (no matter how hard I try) and at this point I am seriously considering coffee (which I hate) just to help me make it through the day without feeling like a zombie.
Great, you are all probably reading this and wondering, “Why is this lady whining again??” Well here is the thing. I have tried all my go to “swings” but I am still stuck in this sand trap. I would prefer not to end up buried in the sand, so I ask you, what do you do to get out of a rut? How do you reset your soul? I would love to hear someone new ideas, or tricks to add to my bag.
At the end of this week I will be taking a much needed trip to see my family. My wonderful and amazing mother is celebrating a huge birthday, and for once I actually get to be there. Living so far from all of my family, and my in-laws isn’t exactly ideal, but it is what it is. I am hoping this trip will really help me comeback and be refreshed.
Sorry for venting. I promise to get back to my regular posting tomorrow.
Oh, and if you were just looking for a daily Squishy dose – check out my super cute dancing dude. Yes, he is dancing to Run-DMC, and yes, he loves that penguin. Judge me if you will, but if your little man was getting down the way Squish was here, you would let him listen to Run DMC too!! He is the light of my everyday! Love this little dancing Squishy!
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